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My Shining Star
Sep 18, 2002
I am a mother of two beautiful girls, one is 7 years old and one 3 years old, I made all the mistakes with the first child being a new mother and when Kendall came along I felt I had done everything right. We were so very close, she was my shinning star. I had quit working to be with my girls when she was born and she and I were never apart. My life revolved around my girls and husband. June 21 (my birthday) the girls begged me to go swimming at a friends house, I really didn't want to go , every event fell through that day, that lead me to that pool. We were leaving at 4:00 so that we could go to dinner with Daddy, for my birthday, he called and was detained at work until late. I decided to stay around to let the kids play. I was with another mom and 6 children. The kids all left the pool so we decided to get in and relax for a few minutes. 5 minutes later she had got into the pool and was gone from my life forever. Another child had come into the pool and saw her. My life as I know it is totally destroyed, I long for her beautiful smile, sweet soul, and her love for me. I am in counceling and bible study's weekly. I know that the Lord is giving me the grace to go on with my life and to be as strong as I can be. This is a journey I never wanted to take, but am forced to. I long to be with her in heaven . The world is such an ugly place to me now, friends are different, our whole prospective has changed. I've changed. I pray for my 7 year old , and the guilt that consumes my thoughts every minute of everyday, the grief that I have brought on our family, and the tragic loss of someone so precious. I'm sorry if this is too long, its only been 3 months, I miss her so much.
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