Jan 04, 2003
Thirty one years ago I had a son.
There was so much joy and celebration.
Thirty one years later and my son is gone.
How does a mother find strength to go on?
I reflect on a life gone too quickly
Moments that are so precious
The memories are all that I have left.
My life here must continue.
Watching you do so many first.
Your first word, first tooth
All were so very dear.
Now I must live with many first.
I struggle to get through each first holiday,
How to survive what should have been your birthday.
I can't go back in time and rewrite history,
Would that I could, but that is not what God planned.
I don't know why you were taken away.
I don't know why I must suffer this way.
All I know for certain is that you are gone.
I must live each day with a gnawing pain in my heart.
Life sometimes seems way too much to bear.
For you I struggle to keep on living.
I will fight for my life, I mustn't give up,
A new day will come and i will find peace.
I am glad that you were in my life though time was too short.
Would time ever be long enough?
Tears fall when I think of you,
But I will go on, I will go on.
I miss you Sean.