Dec 09, 2002
Sometimes I feel like no one cares.
I am swallowed up in the cloud of despair.
It is an angry gray cloud that threatens to drown me.
I am tossed about in a angry sea.
I revisit old feelings,
They are not my friends.
I long for a happier time.
I yearn for peace and happiness.
My life has gone through ever so many changes.
I can never be who I once was.
My life is reshaped, I don't know how to live it.
I can only be who I am now and I don't know who that person is.
Please be patient with me, I feel so alone and hurt.
I am in a down spiral once again.
I know I will find a way back up,
Yet I fear the day when I can't get up on my own.
I want to be strong, I want to survive.
No easy answers as to how this can be accomplished.
Each day brings new challenges,
Each day I ask God how I can go on.
The road ahead has so many pitfalls.
I cannot see what lies in wait.
I can only take each leg of the journey and do my best,
And hope I still have friends at my journey's end.
It will end, won't it?