Oct 29, 2002
When will the pain end?
How long must I travel this seemingly endless journey?
There is no map to guide me.
I feel ambivalent about what I am feeling.
So many emotions pour out, I am in despair.
How do I deal with life now?
Where do I turn for the solace I so desperately need?
Tears flow freely, they stream down my face.
They come from the bottom of my heart.
They lie in wait to make their appearance.
And once again the road disappears around the bend.
So many detours have I made.
I try to follow a straight path
But my road goes forward and then doubles back
I revisit the pain I know so well.
How long will this journey take?
I feel like I have regressed.
The road has so many pitfalls,
It leaves me frozen in time.
I can not get off this path.
It never ends but encircles me
Once again the tears spring forth
And I ask how long, someone please tell me how long.